2:26pm.

Numb. This is quite the charm and feeling.

What's May for?

I'm going through some rough changes in life. I don't know what's happening. I realize that all these changes are part of my own actions. But I finally decided to not dwell on it and move forward. I lost some friends, and more than that. But I don't really have time to stop along the road. At least not anymore.

I don't see how life is going to get better but somehow it feels like lots of stress has been lifted off. I don't feel stressed out like I used to be. It should've been like this from the very beginning. I should've never made any mistakes. I knew what mistakes I was going to be making but I turned my head the other way.

I don't regret losing anything.

Lonely March

It's been 6 months and I have nothing to add here. Nothing but a few lines. It's been quite a long time. Nothing really has changed and that's not too good. Life is going, steady but that steady pace has become a routine. I hate this routine.

Let's see what happens in the near future. I wonder if one day life will change.

Back to the electronic side of music tonight; quite happy with walking amongst the night stars.

I think of myself as flying. Dying. I'm getting old :/

............

Such an amazing sensation. The feeling of freedom.

What I'm experiencing at the moment can only be described as true bliss!

Post title? Not yet.

Currently on a journey to the deep parts of my mind. I can only explain it as bliss.

How I want to be in eternal happiness...

Let's say that it helps me concentrate better now that this trip is happening. Is it really happening? What's there to say what's happening. What journey is this? I want to do more than just this. I'm thankful. But I also aspire for more as well. Let's see what the end of this journey looks like. Nothing seems out of the ordinary. I wanna stop denying some truths. But wow tonight is so good.

I'm still thinking of writing my life in the future. Even if they never go published. Looking back at life will be a good read... Still thinking of what to even call it.

One day in those days, working in the middle class and sometimes low class. Becoming something else. Crossing a new world. Becoming someone else at work. Being different at home. Those were the days. In that world of gaming. I could compare it to a casino. Going there to deposit your money for a bit of fun. Escaping everyday life.

When all it seemed gray and brown. When all it was in reality was a simple scene on a comic book. The nobodies of every town. That we were. No contribution amongst us. Just a few words of gaming and parts of life. Mostly in between smoke breaks. Commonly called amongst some of them as "stoggie" on those days.

I wonder what happened to all of them... I wonder what will happen honestly.

August Thoughts.

5am, here I am, updating this blog. Lots of emotions and feelings. I think regret is the biggest of them all. Some say "no regrets!" but I bet to differ, I made many of my own. I wish I had done better, been better but at the same time I cannot keep living in regret and I must keep on with the journey. What a sense of peacefulness this is. I am on another level of peacefulness for a while. I understand that I should forgive myself first. And that in life, family comes first. I am not as average as life makes it seem, I need advice to go on in the path of life. I'm lost for a minute.

Ahora te entiendo madre