Wow well I've lagged it on updating this blog.
So here are the news with my life... this won't take long.
I quit the gym about 2 months ago. Balley was a total rip-off and I was unhappy with it. It just wasn't really what I wanted. A month later after I quit I injured my knee and didn't give it proper time to heal. That left me to rest for a whole month. Today it's been a month and a week since I stopped running and I miss it.
I have completely forgotten that feeling one gets when running, that happiness. I just don't have it in me.
I started to fight about 2wks ago. It seems like something I am good at since I've won most of them, and only lost one. In my defense, I lost that fight cuz I was tired from 2 previous fights minutes earlier.
Anyway, lately life hasn't been how I pictured it 2 or 3 months ago.. I was hoping things would be different and better for me. I really wanted things to change and I still do, but life, well more like I seem to push things far away from me and it just blows. I don't try to because that's the last thing I want to do. I don't know what's wrong. Maybe I am scared and unconsciously I end up pushing things away. I hope and pray I am given one last chance to show things aren't supposed to end in a bad or just sour way. Sometimes I wonder too many things and this rant has completely moved from its original path.
A random June writing... for a lonely night. Maybe it's the post-rock, maybe it's the loneliness. I sure could use a bit of time to think things through but I wish a certain's person's time would also help me figure out so many, many things... I don't like life sometimes, and yet I am glad to be me... eh well.
This is all for June... or so it seems.
