2015 already

I feel life in our family isn't fair. But who am I to complain? I have health. But what good is health when you can't share such joy with everyone related by blood. Did YOU ever wonder how the future would be? I certainly did when I was a kid. I didn't picture it this way.  All of our mistakes and failures in life don't make us bad people. Ego is cancer of the soul. It's ok to have pride but too much pride usually leads to unhealthy situations. I certainly wish we were more caring towards each other. I wish things would be different. I hate the feeling of being stuck in a neutral spot, perceiving and catching negative vibes just for not choosing sides. I just for want to keep in touch with all my family.

Fuck life.

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I feel like something isn't right tonight. Was this the universe testing me? What was it this time? Why does it feel a bit weird to let go? What is it? That itch, that weird feeling on the chest. What is it?!

January. I've never felt this way

Wow I'm old. But then again that's life.

I miss people. I'm confused. I have a feeling of loneliness for once. I miss my friend, I miss the late night talks. But I sure shouldn't complain. This is what I wanted to begin with. Now that I'm here, I'm second guessing and doubting myself. AH I don't know what I'm doing with myself or my life. I don't even know why I'm writing this, knowing I'll be the only one who reads it.

Blogging is dead.

I didn't even know what day was today lol. Had to look up the date at 3am. Haven't been on this site really. It's a surprise it's still around. Not just my blog but the whole blogger idea in general. Blogging died. Nobody cares. I really don't either. I have nothing relevant to say.

Lines

What an ear-pleasing experience it is when it comes to listening to Radiohead - Nude (Holy Fuck remix).Wow just out of words to say how good this is.

"I woke up wondering if I ever knew you."

2:26pm.

Numb. This is quite the charm and feeling.

What's May for?

I'm going through some rough changes in life. I don't know what's happening. I realize that all these changes are part of my own actions. But I finally decided to not dwell on it and move forward. I lost some friends, and more than that. But I don't really have time to stop along the road. At least not anymore.

I don't see how life is going to get better but somehow it feels like lots of stress has been lifted off. I don't feel stressed out like I used to be. It should've been like this from the very beginning. I should've never made any mistakes. I knew what mistakes I was going to be making but I turned my head the other way.

I don't regret losing anything.